In Moderation

It's 3 a.m. I must be lonely.

And I am.

I just got back from being on a party bus. So I am fairly drunk. Not happy.

I miss Jess more than ever right now. I have no one to hold on to. No one to tell me it will be ok. The last few days have been a blur. Wednesday night I drank a bottle and a half of wine. I spewed up at 4 a.m. and my nose started bleeding. It didn't stop for about half an hour. I am losing touch with the physical world. (Granted; I am very drunk right now so most of this doesn't really actually apply but hey fuck it).

I am in a totally new state of being. It needs grounding. Structure. Release. Jess.

I didn't think it would get this bad. It's been at least a month and a half since I've seen her. It's going to be about a month 'til I se her again.

I fall asleep holding a photo of her.

I am not kidding.



Gotta get myself together, I've been good but I can be better...